Rediscovery

Few years back; I saw "LIFE" scribbled on a colleague's cubicle glass partition. I was passing by him; and stopped at that instant. He was always stressed out because of work. I took a marker from his desk; and drew a SINE WAVE and added "....is a since wave" after "LIFE" as he was silently watching.

I put the marker down; turned and smiled. He was like "Oh yeah! its all ups and downs isnt it?" I said "Yes", now dont get stressed out, take it easy."

We all go through phases of high and low so often in our life; few fight to always stay happy and cheerful and would tell off others who brood. But I think its ok to brood, to feel low and to go into your cocoon; to reemerge. I dont beat myself up for wasting time mulling over; or to have forgotten how blessed I am once in a while.

Past year was interesting; both professionally and personally. It could've been better; I let few things bring me down emotionally and my confidence level was squashed. Perhaps; I lost myself in the process of pleasing others. Its a learning process, and nothing is going to kill you. You know there is light at the end of the tunnel and you shall emerge stronger and brighter; but the pain of passing through that dark tunnel is excruciating. At times; you have people to support you and at times you are all by yourself. With me; though there were people to support; I took my own sweet time.

Those phases are interesting actually; they teach you to differentiate good and bad, they make you wiser and help you to learn to trust again, to try again. You learn to pick yourself together.

I had suspended few of my hobbies close to me; like reading, writing, photography. I am glad I have started them again. Worse; I was so lost in my own world wallowing all the time that I had stopped observing; and relishing those simple joys of life. I have not bounced back completely yet. But certainly its improved. For one thing; I continued my travel sojourns. Was it escapism or my way of feeling life - I dont know. But it continued. I visited beautiful and gorgeous places on earth - Jordan, The North of West Bengal and Sikkim, Bhutan, Iceland, Finland and Sweden.

The other thing I started doing was coloring. I was able to download and print free coloring pages and man! they are so therapeutic. I am playing with crayons, sketch pens and color pencils. For one, I am not patient and I am coloring like nursery kids; going over the borders. But its nice that I dont have to draw anything myself; I suck big time in drawing. Here are few of my latest coloring works

 One other thing that I thought I would never do was to get started on Harry Potter. I have been coaxed by many to read HP but Ive always shied away. Dont know why; but I was successfully perusaded this time and I started during the 2 month break I had before starting on my new job. So yeah! Harry Potter is extremely captivating and brilliantly written. I am reading the 4th book now.

I've gotten interested in few other things as well and hope to start them off soon...Hopefully....